Wow.. it's been sooo long since I've been on here! I'm pretty sure no one I know still uses/goes on this. Anyway, I'm on my break of my last shift as an ESN at VGH. I should be sleeping right now, but I'm not cause I'm wide awake!!! About an hour ago, I randomly decided to go on here just for the heck of it. For the past hour.. I've been reading back at my old blogs... blogs from over 3 years ago! It was amazing and comforting to read how I felt, thought, and perceived things in the past. I was overwhelmed with the emotions I had towards situations and people... I've realized that soooo much has changed since then. Yet at the same time, it proved to me that the things that haven't changed are the ones that matter the most. For example, I was reading through some comments and the people that wrote those comments. I can say that out of the billion on there... I can count on one hand the ones I still talk to on a regular basis. I just feel so blessed to know that I've made really good decisions with who my friends are. I'm so lucky to have such supportive, loving, and crazy people around me to be called my friends... I'm so fortunate that they want me as a friend! Another thing that was really comforting to read was my ability to be sooo open about my relationship with God. I can just cry thinking how close I was with him compared to now.. it's so sad to think that such a strong will and passion for something can change. But it's safe to say that that has/will change... starting 2 days ago! Hehe. I really want to 'rekindle' that relationship I have with JC or "G" (hehe) and really trust in Him like I used to. I want to pray more and trust more... I just want to say thank you sooo much JC for everything. I'm so blessed to have You in my life and created me into the person I am today. I know I've made A LOT of mistakes in the past, yet You still give me the stregnth and support to learn from them. Thank you for all of the challenges I've had to face... I know and trust that it's part of your bigger plan for me. Thank you for the job I'm about to start soon... there's nothing better than being able to do what you do best and love for a living. Thank you for the family and friends around me constantly guiding and supporting me with everything I do... may you keep them in your thoughts and grant them the same blessings you have given me. I hope that I make you proud with everything I do in the future and am looking forward to talking to You eveyrday =) "Lord, i just want to let You know that my heart is in Your hands (so cheesy =P) I just don't want to get hurt again... You out of anyone, would know how i feel. Therefore, if i do get hurt... then it wouldn't be so bad since the hurt isn't really hurt, because it's coming from You. It's maybe more like a wake up call or something? I love You so much, and would answer to Your call anytime." - Friday, June 10, 2005 Although I said a lot has changed, it's amazing to see that how I feel toward situations and even situations themselves remain similar. I hope to think I've matured over time and have gotten wiser in terms of dealing with things I'm unprepared for, but if I feel the same towards something now as I did in the past.. I hope it's because I'm being true to myself and trust that my values remain strong... | 
